One last time

Far away from our dreams
Like a distant memory you shall pass
And the wind that blows from north
Shall now turn east
More than anything I wish for you
To stay and cuddle me in your arms
One last time
One last time,
Hold me and do not go.
Let me hear you heart
I want to know who it beats for.
Is it for me?
And then as the end draws near,
I shall hold my breath
Trying to persuade my heart to beat
The look on your face
My heart and soul will remember.
I will remember you
In every moment that you were with me
In all the places we were together.
I need you
But I dare not be selfish.
You must go
I know that now
I’d ask you not to
But I will not cloud your dreams.
When you go
Take a piece of my heart with you
Keep it and be silent
Just remember that more than anything
I love you!

Blabs 1.01

"The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go."

Darn.. so true!

Ever After?

I was thinking. Why do people fall in love? Is it because of the human need to be with someone? Is it because society tells us so? Companionship? Happiness? The search for contentment? While all of these are true; for me there is just one simple reason: people fall in love because they choose to. Some are optimistic about it, some pessimistic. But everyone hopes to find true love, whether we look for it or not, whether it comes or not. I love because I feel complete when I am in love. I feel happy, contented. And yet for some people love is not the issue but commitment is. Why do some people fear it? The reason varies, but generally they fear it because, as they say love is all about risks and some people does not want to take that risk of being hurt or feeling pain. Others maybe traumatized, seeing other loved ones try but fail. But it’s part of it. While there is the possibility of tears, there is also the assurance of laughter, joy, peace and happiness. It’s not always about the fights, arguments, pains but it’s about the blinding truth that when one is ‘in love,’ they feel alive.

For centuries it has been told in stories, written in books, movies were seen, plays where created, love is the eternal story that started everything. Mankind was created because if the selfless love of a higher being, either that or boredom. The Romeo and Juliet story took form in so many ways already. The Prince and Princess tale has been told countless times, in hundreds of different languages, with different twists, but always the same ending; ‘they lived happily ever after.’ But what happens after the “ever after”? Did Cinderella still clean the palace fireplace? Did Sleeping Beauty get a lot of sleep with the snores of the Prince Charming? Did Snow White still eat apples?

No one and nobody actually know for sure but I guess that’s why there is a thing called “Faith!”

Believe.

No Name

I dreamt about you and woke up in tears
It was so clear I thought it was real
Your face I can still remember
And yet you did not have a name
You walked away before I got the chance to touch you
Today I tried not to think about you
I went through the day with nothing
But a memory of the way I felt.
I changed; you created that changing in me.
Why do you affect me so?
When I know that it was nothing but a dream.
We shared a wonderful time together
Underneath the stars we walked
Bathed by the moonlight.
Without touching I felt you
There was something different about the way
You looked at me.
Something that made me believes I was alive.
I searched
Tried to find you
Days went by,
Weeks, then months, years.
I was so sure I’ll see you again
This time in reality
Alas, when I had almost given up
I found you.
Asked me for directions
It was the beautiful face the way I remember
I found you
And this time I’m not letting you walk away
I touched you to make sure you were real
I asked for a name
To put on that face
You said…

100 Days Together

I just want to share this story...

Most of the time we tend to neglect the things really important to us, loved ones that make us truely happy, and we often forget that the people we love give us love not because they have to but because they want to. "I Love you" is a sacred thing to say.. so when you say it.. mean it. Nothing is more wonderful than being in love, it makes you feel alive, it makes things seem better, it makes us whole.

Peter and Tina are sitting in the park doing nothing, but just gazing into the sky, while all their friends are having fun with their beloved half.

Tina: I'm so bored. Just wish I have a boyfriend now to spend time with.

Peter: I guess we're the only leftovers. We're the only person who isn't with a date now. (both sigh n silence for a while)

Tina: I think I have a good idea. Lets play a gamePeter: Eh? What game?

Tina: Eem..It's quite simple. You be my boyfriend for 100 days and I'll be your girlfriend for 100 days. what do you think?

Peter: Oookay..Anyway I don't have any plan for the next few months.

Tina: You sound like you aren't looking forward to it at all. Cheer up. Today will be our first day and our first date. Where should we go?

Peter: What about a movie? I heard that there is a really great movie in theater now.

Tina: Seems like I don't have any better idea than this. Lets move. (went to watch their movies and sent each other home)

Day 2:Peter and Tina went to a concert together, and Peter bought Tina a keychain with a star.

Day 3:They went shopping together for a friend's birthday present. Share an ice-cream together and hugged each other for the first time.

Day 7:Peter drove Tina up onto a mountain and they watch the sunset together. When the night came and the moon glowed, they said sat on the grass gazing at the stars together. A meteor passed by. Tina mumbled something.

Day 25:Spend time at a themepark and got onto rollercoasters, and ate hotdogs and cotton candy. Peter and Tina got in the haunted house and Tina grabbed someone's hand instead of Peter's hand by accident. They laughed together for a while.

Day 67:They drove pass a circus and decided to get in to watch the show. The midget asked Tina to play a part as his assistant in the magic show. Went around to see other entertainments around after the show. Came to a fortune teller and she just said "Treasure every moment from now on" and a tear rolled down the fortune teller's cheek.

Day 84:Tina suggested that they go to the beach. The beach wasn't so crowded that day. They have their first kiss with each other just as the sun is setting.

Day 99:They decided to have a simple day and is deciding to have a walk around the city. They sits down onto a bench.

1:23 pm
Tina: I'm thirsty. Lets rest for a while first.

Peter: Wait here while I go buy some drinks. What would you like?

Tina: Eem...Apple juice will be just fine.

1:43 pm
Tina waiting for about 20 minutes and Peter havent return. Then someone walked up to her.

Stranger: Is your name Tina?

Tina: Yes, and may I help you?

Stranger: Just now down there on the street a drunk driver has crashed into a guy. I think its your friend.

Tina ran over to the spot with the stranger and sees Peter lying on the floor with blood over his face and her apple juice still in his hands. The ambulance came and she went to the hospital with Peter.Tina sat outside the emergency room for five and a half hours. The doctor came out, and he sighed.

11:51 pm
Doctor: I'm sorry, but we did the best we could. He is still breathing now but God would take him away from us very soon. We found this letter inside his pocket.

The doctor hands over the letter to Tina and she goes into the room to see Peter. He look weak but peaceful. Tina read the letter and then she burst into tears. Here is what the letter said.

Tina, our 100 days is almost over. I had fun with you during all these days. Although you may be greedy sometimes and less thoughtful, but these all brought happiness into my life. I have realize that you are a really cute girl and blamed myself for never taken the time to knowing that. I have nothing much to ask for, but I just wish that we can extend the day. I want to be your boyfriend forever and wish that you can be beside me all the time. Tina, I love you.

11:58
Tina: (sobbing) Peter. Did you know what was the wish I made on the night there was a meteor. I asked God to let us last forever. We were suppose to last 100 days so Peter! You can't leave me! I LOVE YOU, but can you come back to me now? I love you Peter. I LOVE YOU.

As the clock struck twelve, Peter's heart stopped beating. It was 100 days.

NOTE*Tell the guy or girl that you love them before its too late. You never know whats going to happen tomorrow. You never know who will be leaving you and never return.

To the one who holds the key...

that first look, first smile, first hug,

the first time.

and when i start to remember

i start to remember the magic,

the butterflies,

the innocence of it all.

don't doubt my love

there is no reason to.

if it seems dim, it's only because i fear,

like before,

i fear the betrayal of trust,

of dishonesty and lies.

but again, i say to myself,

love has no "buts" and no "ifs"

i shant be conquered by fear.

i know i will be fine,

in you arms

i am safe.

inside you make me feel alive

and the love that you give me can't be surpassed.

if i do not understand,

let it not hinder my love.

someday, somehow,

i will be able to show you

how much this heart beats for you

you don't even have to listen.

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We look to the past and yet we do not see the lesson. Armed with nothing but faith we face the future. Our ignorance shall take its toll soon and when the time comes we will only dwell on our tears. We seek answers from the memory forgotten. I fear we do not see each other as we hoped. And yet we move boldly into each others arms desperately walking in the dark with our hands tied behind our back. Tomorrow we shall see that it should not be. The road we took became a burden and the force called love moves us no more. It shall be our fate. Could you save me from my fear that lies so deep in my heart? The gift of foresight brings me not solitude but it's a curse of pain, tears, and sadness. Our choices are not always right. We only hope it's for the best. And when dawn comes without warning, we drown slowly by its light. It burns, I tell you. The promise of a new day shows little comfort. Then as we wave goodbye to the night we think of sleep, and oh how I miss it. I dream of you in a place where the laughter of the people around, I could not help but envy. I need to find my own. What now? Shall I forever dwell in the depths of my emotion? No, you shall not conquer me! You shall not destroy my being! (Written 03.18.03)

For you who made me cry...

And then the day comes to this
And I feel a pain from nowhere...
No you do not hold power over me.
I forget it's over.
I forget it has ended.
Let me hold you and feel the memory of the bliss
You once brought me.
I mourn not for you
But for an angel.
Too much waiting,
Too long I have suffered,
And now one last tear
One last
For everything that was,
is, and will be.
One final twitch,
let me feel it for you
for soon it will pass
I know I should not feel it
I know it is wrong to
But then again..
I call you now
From up the sky come down.
We share but memories of the past
and hopes for the future,
But I guess now that's not important.
Tears from the heart burns
like the dying of a rose
It withers, crumbles, turns dark, stiff, cold
and then decays.
Soon all these shall pass,
but until then..
For you who made me cry,
Let it fall one last time,
One last tear
And then.. It ends.

Ghost By Indigo Girls

there's a letter on the desktop that i dug out of a drawer
the last truce we ever came to in our adolescent war
and i start to feel the fever from the warm air through the screen
you come regular like seasons
shadowing my dreams
and the mississippi's mightybut it starts in minnesota
at a place that you could walk across with five steps down
and i guess that's how you started like a pinprick to my heart
but at this point you rush right through me and i start to drown
and there's not enough room in this world for my pain
signals cross and love gets lost and time passed makes it plain
of all my demon spirits i need you the most
i'm in love with your ghost
i'm in love with your ghost
dark and dangerous like a secret that gets whispered in a hush

don't tell a soul
when i wake the things i dreamt about you last night make me blush

don't tell a soul
and you kiss me like a lover then you sting me like a viper
i go follow to the river play your memory like a piper
and i feel it like a sickness how this love is killing me
i'd walk into the fingers of your fire willingly
and dance the edge of sanity i've never been this close
i'm in love with your ghost
unknowing captor

you never know how much you pierce my spirit
but i can't touch youcan you hear it

a cry to be free
oh i'm forever under lock and key
as you pass through me
now i see your face before me i would launch a thousand ships
to bring your heart back to my island as the sand beneath me slips
as i burn up in your presence and i know now how it feels
to be weakened like achilles with you always at my heels
this bitter pill i swallow is the silence that i keep
it poisons me i can't swim free the river is too deep
though i'm baptized by your touchi am no worse than most
in love with your ghost
you are shadowing my dreams
in love with your ghost
in love with your ghost
in love with your ghost

"I am nothing special; of this I am sure. I am a common man with common thoughts, and I've led a common life. There are no monuments dedicated to me and my name will soon be forgotten, but I've loved another with all my heart and soul, and to me, this has always been enough."

- from "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks

I love you now because I do not fear tomorrow.
I need you now because without you I might not find my way.
But let not my fears cover the sun above us.
And the hope that you gave me bring me more passion to live.
Wait not for me to ask if you love me, tell me now or I might grow weary of asking.
What makes me long for you I do not know
And everyday without you seems like torture to my aching heart.
And every waking moment that I have, I seem to only think about you.
I cannot wish for anyone else when I know that you are by my side.
Smiles seem to be laughter of my heart.
And the little times that you made me cry are only but fervor to be with you more.
My fear to lose your presence haunts my being
And yet I can conquer this for your words assure me.
Every time the sound of your voice reaches my ears,
My soul quivers.
Thank you too for all the you have given me
Thank you for just being you!